I'm gonna start off this entry with my cravings. I want a goddamn pizza right now. A big....extra cheese, easy on the sauce pizza!! Maybe stuffed crust..mmm! but then i want a big mac! GAH! And i hate them, but damn i want one really badly. So here's my plan!! Im gonna buy 4 big mac's (no pickles..eeewww!!) and grind them up. Then Im gonna buy a larger pizza with extra cheese, easy on the sauce. Im gonna take the big macs and spread them over the pizza, then grind up two egg rolls and two soft tacos (cause you can NEVER go wrong with egg rolls and tacos) and then EAT!! Lol, no..eww! That sounds so gross. But i do want some pizza, a big mac, some egg rolls and some soft tacos. Yeah, i could never eat all that but DAMN! Im craving it! I could SOOO kick anyone's ass in an eating contest! Im serious! I may not eat anything..but when you challange me...oooh child!! you best be watchin your ass cause im gonna WHIP IT!! Lol, Seriously though....i can eat if challenged. I dont know what it is, but i cant back down or walk away from a bet or a dare unless its really dumb or its gonna hurt some one. Tim and I shall have a eating contest sometime, and Im sooo gonna kick his ass in it. Cause dis girl can E-A-T!!!!! But today was cool. School got cancled and i slept untill like 12ish. Im still sick as a dog, but its getting somewhat better. I spent all day watching my main fucking man JOE on Blues Clues. When tim gets here, he's gonna have to understand that Joe is my man. Lol, I molested a Joe doll once...on a dare. Lol, dont ask...really dont. But it was funny, they were having an all-day Blues Clues marathon on Noggin, so i was like WOO!! And there was nothing else on, so i watched that untill two. I couldnt take any more of it. Gah...It was sooo...woo. If I ever get stoned, Im gonna watch blues clues...I bet that would be one fun trip! Lol, esp. the newer shows where Blue goes into that "magical box" and can talk. Omg, someone had to be on fucking shrooms to invent that one. NO!! Someone was on fucking shrooms when they did the Teletubbies!! WTF?! I mean...a baby for a sun...wooo!! That, woo. If I ever use shrooms, im watching that fucking show! WOOT!! After that, I went into my room and turned on some tunes. I was looking around my room for something to do, and what do my eyes hit first? My guitar. So I picked it up and started strumming. There's a song "1,000 Mile Wish" By Finger 11...well, it came on and I thought about it....and started to play around with the cords. After like a half an hour, I got the begining of the song down!! WOO!! Thats right bitches! I can play the first maybe...30 seconds of that song! Woo! I was soo happy that I went onto the next song, "Centerfolds" By Placibo. That song is all piano, so I just kinda fooled around with it. Then "Fishing in the Dark" By The Nitty Gritty Dirt Band came on. OMG! I must of sat there for a good hour trying to get that song down! I can play something like it, but it doesnt sound the same...*pouts*. But hey! Its cool!! The next time I looked at the clock it was 6ish. I was like FUCK!! I had been playing my guitar in there for over 4 hrs!! As soon as i put it down my fingers started throbbing! I used the pick, so it wasnt all that bad but woo..Lol, then things get kinda bad. I went to the bathroom and then out into the living room. To make a really long and bad story short mom and dad started yelling at me for various things...and at one point i got so mad that i threw down the frying pan that was on the stove....that i was cooking my grilled cheese with....onto the counter, making the cheese go all over my hand. It fucking hurt. I've had cold water and ice on it all night, and its not even red now, but it hurts like a bitch! But now everythings okay, im really sniffly though. Okay...Im getting really pissed off. Last night I downloaded Lime Wire. The first time it fucked up and the second time it worked. So then the java gave me a hard time, and i didnt have time to install that last night. So I get onto the computer tonight and install the java. Then I go to get lime wire up...and my computer cant find it! I was so fucking pissed!! So now I'm downloading it for the third time....if it screws up one more time Im just gonna say screw it and redownload my win mx. Okay, its working this time....but if the java...oooo!! GAH!! I'll...*takes a deep breathe* nevermind, I'm all good. Tonight has sucked ass. Tim didnt get to call me today and then he couldnt get on cause he had to spend tonight with his mom and Mark. Its okay...I do understand, it just sucks. I had a really bad night and i needed to talk to him. *sighs*. My chest is on fire again from coughing...lets see if I got another fever.. *takes her temp.* Fucking a....103.2. Yeah, Im going to the doctors tommarrow. Tim's been sending me emails to let me know that he's okay...its really sweet of him. Okay, there's something that i wanna tell people...but it cant get back to my parrents. They're thinking about putting me in a detention home. I dont know if it'll happen, well actually its a 60-40 chance that they will...because I'm not being good for them or something. They said that they might take my phone and computer away...I told them that if they did that, just to put me in the home. There wouldnt be a difference to me. Im starting to see the truth about them now, dads a liar...moms a backstabber. Thats not rude, its the truth. Im kinda scared right now, God I wish someone could just hold me. I want to be held, Thats what I need...*holds up her cup and coughs more, then takes a sip of the water* Cheers...Love...